Crazy? Certainly.: I can't help, falling in love with you...

From Elvis Presley's (or UB 40) lips, to mine. This is our 'song', the one we first danced to back in 1996 but since we were cool we had UB 40 playing and not the king - ha! Because of Valentine's Day having come and gone, I've been reflecting on our love and my love for DH. We have had some great V-Days in the past including a trip to Paris and getting a new family member (Zoey) and some awful ones which shall remain unnamed but might include trying to give me a stupid teddy bear instead of the puppy I was asking for. Let's be clear, I don't think V-Day should be the day you profess your undying love for others but it is one of the days where the world has to shut up and put up with it.

This posting is not going to be sappy (maybe just a little) since I am known for saying things like "most of the time you annoy the crap out of me, but thanks for xyz", nor do I claim that we have a perfect relationship since we have had highs (that range from post-it notes and writing messages in the snow to great adventures) and lows (I'm pointing my finger at law school) and when people do claim to have one it makes me want to gag myself with a spoon mostly because I believe there is no such thing as "perfect" in life but also because it sets an unachievable and unrealistic standard.

I love the grand gestures I have received from DH in the past (and will love them in the future), many of them having to do with V-Day, but what I have learned to love most recently are the little/grand gestures. This wasn't always the case. I have had a really hard time at recognizing all the ways in which DH loves me. Last year I told him that my "bank" felt depleted from all the withdrawals he made and very few deposits, he said he thought he made several deposits but that I didn't count them so we came up with a system. I created paper deposits slips for my bank and every time he did something that made me feel loved I would fill one out and give it to him to show that it counted. This system not only made me recognize all the deposits he made but it also showed him that I appreciated them. We used the system for about 4 months and it really helped both of us realize that we show each other how much we love one another in daily gestures that can tend to go unnoticed but in our household no longer do.

Most recently this includes DH making me breakfast every morning - a soft boiled egg with toast (with tomato and avocado on some days) to be exact. I am not a morning person so I don't get up early enough to make myself breakfast because every last second of sleep counts AND although I love to cook, the preciseness of a soft boiled egg has always been daunting to me and therefore not something I am willing to put myself through. So DH started making these for me this week and they make a huge difference in my day. I feel fuller the rest of the day, I eat less and I have more energy - plus the added bonus of feeling loved. You may not think much of this gesture but this is coming from someone who won't take the time to warm up something in the microwave for himself because "that's too much work" and so instead will eat it cold (I know, right?!?!). But there he is every morning making me breakfast and he puts SO much effort in to trying to make me the perfect egg. And every morning I can't help falling in love with you....